Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Character or Comfort?

I can tell already that 2010 is going to be a year of pain~ growing pains that is.

While in the hospital after Christmas - bored out of my mind - I was thinking about 2009 and its successes and failures. In my smug review of the year, the Holy Spirit gently whispered His thoughts into my spirit.

He wasn't impressed.

So, I prayed.

"Lord, I REALLY want to be ALL that YOU want me to be. Change me to be MORE like YOU than EVER before - REGARDLESS of the cost."

As soon as I breathed those last words, I gasped!

I pictured my hands grasping at the thin air trying to catch the words and shove them way back into the abyss of my being.

Did I really just pray that?

Do I really mean it?

After some soul searching and some soul "dying", I do really mean it.

After all, what good am I to HIM unless HE is in me greater with each passing day. The good thing? I can't do it! I'm not good enough! Now don't get me wrong and paint me into some super saint~ 'cause that I "ain't"! In my flesh I don't want to do nothing but just live free and be happy. I am a stinking sinner and struggle with a sinful nature. And the sinful nature likes things just the way they are! But.... I do love my Jesus! I want Him more than I want me!

He has to do it, but I have to let Him.

So, with all of that in mind, I was CHALLENGED again today during our weekly staff meeting. We are reading Francis Chan's book, Crazy Love. Chapter 8 was today. "Obsessed".

If you are looking for a book to challenge you (along with God's Word), read this one!

Chan emphasizes James 1:2-4. Basically, God is more interested in our character than our comfort.

I knew that.

But today I perceived and completely grasped God's Word for me regarding this.

Our culture in America SCREAMS comfort.
Christianity produces character.

So...... I am continuing the journey to which He has called me.

I want to embrace this journey with His strength.
I want to continue this journey with His Word.
I want to reach others on this journey with His passion.
I want to finish this journey His character.

I have a feeling most of it will be without comfort.



Beth in NC said...

God bless you Dorinda. (((hugs)))

lasturch said...


Ms. Dorinda,
I just wanted you to know that I have nominated you for the Cup Overfloweth blog category. You can truly see Jesus in all of your posts, and I want everyone to be able to experience that!

Lee Ann